conversations with cheetara
20 March 2002

cheetara: I have a dinner idea
me: oh
me: what
cheetara: it is very exciting
cheetara: pork ginger
cheetara: grilled ginger teriyaki pork tenderloin
me: ok
cheetara: and an appetizer of shumai
me: you're going to make this
cheetara: what do you think?
me: /
me: ?
cheetara: no
me: sounds tasty
cheetara: I was thinking of making pork for idinner actually
cheetara: but I didn't feel like going to the market in the rain
cheetara: so I'll order in pork
cheetara: later
cheetara: when I'm hungry
cheetara: I'm sleepy
cheetara: starting next week I'm going to cook once or twice a wekk
cheetara: I'm stupid for not cooking more
cheetara: week of course not wekk
me: cooking can be a hassle though.
me: if you're just cooking for one
cheetara: yes ... and not fun when you are only one
cheetara: lol
cheetara: there you go
me: we're goodl
cheetara: those great minds again
cheetara: maybe I'm depressed today by the melting of the ice shelf
cheetara: and the discontinuation of air cover in ny
me: of all the things...what air cover in ny?
cheetara: the patrolling f16s and f15s
me: oh, you mean they're stopping fighter jets over the city
cheetara: yes
cheetara: uggh
cheetara: maybe I should have just never gotten out of bed today
me: i thought you meant like the ice shelf was going to suck all the oxygen away from the NY metro area
me: confused me
cheetara: sorry ... 2 separate thoughts
cheetara: I'm clearly experiencing anxiety of several fronts today
cheetara: maybe I'll turn into one of those people that can't leave their apartment because they are so anxious about everything
me: i'll come and visit you, unless that makes you anxious too
cheetara: no I think I'd be ok with that
cheetara: and another thinkg
cheetara: thing
cheetara: I'm not impressed by the imminent re-release of E.T.
cheetara: E.T. is ugly and freaky looking
cheetara: maybe I need paxil
me: as if hollywood's sequel mania weren't enough of a monument to anticreativity, now they just refurbish old movies and pad them with extra scenes and we're supposed to shell out to see them again. Outrageous!
cheetara: my feelings exactly
me: I've been thinking about Ecstasy, actually.
cheetara: I saw kissing jessica stein today did I tell you?
me: yes
cheetara: ecstasy the drug?
me: yes
cheetara: you would do it?
me: probably not
cheetara: oh
me: not with other people around, anyway
cheetara: lol
me: but i'd think about it
cheetara: obviously ... as you are thinking about it
cheetara: I wouldn't take paxil
cheetara: or any of these other mood-altering prescription drugs
cheetara: d. thinks I should speak to a therapist about my feelings about g.'s weddin
cheetara: wedding
me: do you have a therapist?
cheetara: no
cheetara: so that would be a slippery slope
cheetara: IM is my therapy
me: i've never been enthralled with the idea myself
cheetara: I don't believe in therapy
cheetara: unless you have MAJOR issues
cheetara: a lot of people have therapists though
cheetara: P. the other day mentioned his therapist twice
cheetara: which was odd
me: if I'm not willing to talk about my personal problems with friends, why should I pay someone to listen to them?
cheetara: so finally he asked me if I had one ... as if this was normal
me: i keep a very occasional diary which is sometimes helpful.
cheetara: and seemed mildly surprised that I didn't have one
cheetara: I do keep an occasional diary as well
cheetara: so then
cheetara: today in kissing jessica stein
cheetara: the "so then" actually doesn't go there
me: just to express ideas in concrete form and see them; helps externalize them enough to think less passionately about them.
cheetara: there was a good line
me: tell me the line
cheetara: when helen asked jessica what her therapist thought about her burgeoning lesbian relationship
cheetara: and jessica said "I haven't spoken to my therapist about it"
cheetara: and helen says "why not"
me: it's personal
me: !
cheetara: yep
cheetara: it's too personal
me: that was in the preview
cheetara: whatever
cheetara: it's still funny
me: it's like the one funny line in the film, i'm sure
cheetara: some funny moments in the movie
cheetara: no
me: oh okay
cheetara: there are some other funny moments
cheetara: but not a great movie over all
cheetara: several times I thought we were at the end of the movie
cheetara: and we weren't
cheetara: and then when it ended I was surprised, because that didn't seem like a logical place to end the movie
cheetara: the movie offended my need for closure
cheetara: oh ... one of the other good lines
cheetara: which was also in the preview
cheetara: was jessica's grandmother seeing helen after jessica comes out and she says "I don't know what jessica sees in her ... she's too flat-chested."
cheetara: if you want I can tell you the WHOLE movie and then you never need to see it EVER
me: no thank you
cheetara: I should have gone to go see y tu mama tambien
cheetara: do you want to know the end?
me: does she stay a lesbian?
cheetara: do you really want to know?
me: i won't see the movie, so while I can't say it matters greatly to me, it doesn't hurt me any to know.
cheetara: no she does not
cheetara: helen breaks up with her
me: ah ha! i halfway suspect willow might convert back too
cheetara: because they rarely have sex
cheetara: and they are essentially best friends
cheetara: and so the movie ends with jessica bumping into the guy that confessed his love her her like a year before
me: so it's just kind of an anti "chasing amy" where she starts out gay and goes back to being gay after a good but not great attempt at a straight relationship
cheetara: never saw chasing amy
me: it's by far the best of the kevin smith movies
me: and by far the best movie I've ever seen with ben affleck in it
me: b/c it was made before he became Ben Affleck.
cheetara: so the last scene is of jessica meeting helen for coffee and helen hangs up with her girlfriend (that jessica says hello to) and then they start talking about jessica bumping into josh meyer
cheetara: because ... they are best friends
cheetara: I want to see chasing movie
cheetara: chasing amy
cheetara: what else has kevin smith directed
me: clerks, mallrats, dogma, jay and slient bob strike back
cheetara: ahhhhhh
me: clerks was great, the rest were not, except for chasing amy
cheetara: I saw clerks
cheetara: I want to see dogma
cheetara: I like religion movies
me: well, i think i'm going to log off now.
me: and order some thai food
cheetara: oh no
cheetara: but you were comforting me in my anxiety ridden day
me: ok
cheetara: no non o
cheetara: I'm much better
cheetara: in large part to you
cheetara: thank you
cheetara: you and the pork plan
me: and the bath plan
cheetara: those things have improved matters
cheetara: and the bath plan
me: were you the person who asked me recently when I'd last had a tub bath?
cheetara: did I tell you I drank so much last night that I puked
cheetara: yes
cheetara: sorry
cheetara: that was funny
me: yes you did
cheetara: and you wouldn't answer
me: you shouldn't drink so much
cheetara: no I shouldn't
me: it's not safe
cheetara: well
cheetara: I was with a friend
cheetara: he was as drunk as me
cheetara: he brought me home to make sure I was ok
cheetara: and while I puked in my bathroom
cheetara: he passed out on my bed
cheetara: hahahahaha
me: hmm
cheetara: very adult behavior on my part
cheetara: so
cheetara: today is an alcohol free day
cheetara: hooray
me: i'm sure your liver says hooray, even if the rest of you wants a drink
cheetara: the princess bride is on the family channel tonight
me: aw, that's nice. isn't it a shame that what's his name got all old and puffy and is on the X Files now?
cheetara: he's on the x files now?
cheetara: wesley?
cheetara: dread pirate roberts?
cheetara: really?
me: ye
me: s
me: plays a bad FBI agent
cheetara: I haven't watched the xfiles in like 5,000 years
me: lol
me: that's a long timem
cheetara: yep
cheetara: haven't watched it since I was nefertiti
cheetara: what's his character name?
me: oh I forget. Agent Roberts or something.
cheetara: assistant director brad follmer
me: Assistant Director Brad Follmer
me: oh
me: fooey
cheetara: lol
cheetara: x-files has a good website
cheetara: of course it would
me: I went to IMDB
cheetara: I went to thexfiles.com
me: there's a making of princess bride documentary apparently
me: from last year
cheetara: hmmmmm
cheetara: that makes no sense
me: it's on the special edition dvd
cheetara: ahhh
cheetara: but wouldn't it have to be made while the movie was being made
me: His father (Cary's) was named Domonic. Isn't that a little too close to Demonic for comfort? Maybe he's the antichrist.
cheetara: lol
cheetara: too funny
cheetara: oh weird
me: what?
cheetara: p. will be in this eric bogosian play in princeton
cheetara: and I was just checking the website
cheetara: and one of his costars is a series regular on The American Embassy
me: and cary elwes is in it?
me: oh, did you watch that?
me: which regular?
cheetara: no it was more the american embassy reference
cheetara: as we had talked about it last week
cheetara: no I haven't watched it
cheetara: I don't know
me: what's the website
cheetara: it doesn't say
me: the show sucks, I've decided
cheetara: for the play?
cheetara: www.mccarter.org
me: oooh, it's Reiko aylesworth
me: she's lovely
cheetara: yeah
cheetara: you know her?
me: the only reason I might keep watching the Am Embassy
me: good thing her father was okay with "ko"
cheetara: lol
cheetara: so how do you know her?
me: she's the one in the American Embassy
me: I've seen 2 episodes
cheetara: the what one?
cheetara: the main character?
me: you said before "one of P.'s costars is in the american embassy"
me: she's the one
me: the costar
me: of P.'s
cheetara: yes I know
cheetara: but
me: that's how I know her
cheetara: you went "ooh reiko blah blah blah ... she's lovely"
cheetara: had you notice dher on the show?
me: yes
me: we've never met in real life
cheetara: ahhhhhhhh
cheetara: gotcha
me: i did not tell her to hold my beer while I relieved myself
cheetara: fuck off
cheetara: lol
cheetara: I don't remember telling you the detailed complete story of meeting p.
cheetara: how funny
cheetara: she plays emma's flatmate, who is an over-achieving but guarded vice-consul
me: yeah, the show would be way better if it didn't revolve around Emma, if it was more a balanced ensemble.
cheetara: couldn't comment
cheetara: never saw it
me: And they try to do the humor/serious thing a la Ally, but when you set a show in the US embassy in London, you just CAN'T have an embassy bombing one scene, a vibrator joke the next. Not in this day and age.
cheetara: no you can't
me: so.
cheetara: boy we have learnt a lot online together
me: it's been a productive day.
me: but we both must order our dinners...
cheetara: do you know that richard dreyfuss made his motion picture debut with a bit part in "Valley of the Dolls"
me: nope. very curious
cheetara: ok
cheetara: last comment before we log off
me: it turns out i don't have enough cash for my thai dinner plans...the dilemma: go to ATM or just boil some linguine...what would you do?
cheetara: well
cheetara: it's not raining anymore
cheetara: but I would boil linguine
me: i haven't been outside all day, maybe going out would be good for me
cheetara: I have a tummy ache
me: or maybe the cold would morph into pneumonia
cheetara: well it's not as gross as it was before
me: i'm wish your tummy didn't ache
cheetara: so I was dating this guy chris a while ago for a brief while
cheetara: and he's applying to law school as well
cheetara: and he got into pepperdine
cheetara: I just checked
cheetara: pepperdine is ranked 106th
cheetara: I too wish my tummy wouldn't ache
me: so, is he going to pepperdine?
cheetara: well, he's waiting to hear form other schoosl
cheetara: but
cheetara: I'm thinking
cheetara: I'm whining that I haven't heard from yale, harvard or columbia
cheetara: but I have gotten into the number 2 school in the country
cheetara: why will you be in bosotn on monday
me: client breakfast meeting on tuesday, i'm going to go for the weekend, just for a change of scenery
me: taking monday off, hanging out
cheetara: like me and dc
cheetara: ok
cheetara: the suspense is killing me
cheetara: what will you do for dinner
me: I'm going to log off when we say bye and go get some money and order thai food.
cheetara: ok
cheetara: well
cheetara: we can say bye
me: okay, hang in there.
cheetara: I am going to draw my bath
me: it's going to be okay
cheetara: thanks joe
cheetara: I feel better
me: use pastels
cheetara: hahahaha
me: have a good night
cheetara: you too

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